Getting what I want

I re-started this blog with a new look and a new outlook on life.  I didn't want my blog to be negative and I also didn't want it to sit dormant.  I want to talk about how I've been overcoming trials and such.  After six long years, I'm finally understanding and internalizing the great Law of Attraction.  It has really changed my life.  There is a good scriptural basis for this teaching, many of which come straight from the mouth of Jesus Christ.

I went to a dance last Saturday and came home with two phone numbers.  One was from a girl that I was really interested in, and the other was from a woman that I was taking a chance on, but I wasn't really interested in.  I decided to take a chance on her because you don't know where you'll find love.  I think that I should give many people a chance instead of focusing on so few.

By the next day, I had sent texts to both of the numbers, but neither had responded.  I will never understand why a woman would give her phone number to a man if she does not intend to communicate with him.  Just say no.  It hurts WAY less.

Anyway, I hadn't heard from either of them, but I was really interested in getting to know one of them, so I invited her to go with a large group and myself to get shakes on Thursday.  Thus far, she hasn't responded.  For the other woman, I sent her a text to see how she's doing today.  She actually replied!  And now we have some tentative plans to get together on a weekday and go for a hike or something fun like that.  Aren't I glad I took a chance?!

This whole experience has kind of made me depressed.  I've just felt badly about myself  ever since the dance.  This usually happens, but like a moth to a light, I keep going back to the dances.  After feeling this way for days and thinking about it very carefully, I realized that I'm not believing that I will receive what I want, which is a girlfriend and then a wife.  One way I'm showing that I'm not believing is that I'm not acting as though I already have what I want.  Another way I'm showing that I'm not believing is that I'm not actively thanking the Lord for bringing me what I want.  I also have little in the way of a plan to get what I want and I'm not feeling good now.  How can I attract what I want when I'm not doing everything I'm supposed to be doing?

So here's what I'm going to do to counteract this.  I already have a plan and a date by when I want a new girlfriend.  I know that working with a set date isn't easy, but I can do it.  I am going to begin to actively thank Heavenly Father for giving me what I desire most, which is the companionship of a woman who loves me and one whom I love as well.  I am also going to state to Him and to the world that I want a new girlfriend by that set date.  And then, I am going to act as though I already have what I want.  I am going to set aside evenings to spend time with the woman I love, I'm going to cook extra food when I make food, I'm going to remember her when I start to feel down or lonely, and I'm going to visualize myself holding her hand when I'm in the car; at church; or someplace else.   I am going to completely act and feel as though God has granted me the perfect companion and I am going to thank Him every day for it.  When times are tough, I'm going to thank Him as often as I can remember.

I know that I already love this woman, even though I'm unsure of who she is.  I have some ideas of women that I want her to be though!  But I know that God will allow me to meet the right woman for me, and He will allow for me to love her to my heart's content.  I just love her so much already!  It will be hard not to gush over her, much like I have previous girlfriends.  I just feel like I have so much love to express to her.  It feels as though I'm holding back a waterfall within me, and when I am able to show affection to her, it will gush out and keep gushing at full capacity for years.  I love you, whoever you are.  I can't wait to show you how much I love you.